8.21.2008

I'm grateful...

Well, here I am sitting in my room surrounded by boxes and boxes of stuff. That's right, I'm moving in a day and a half to Logan, Utah where I will start my new adventure. Earlier this year I decided I needed to get out of my parents house and learn how to take care of myself. For no particular reason I chose Utah State. I didn't really know why at the time. Since then I discovered a major only offered there called Family Finance. I had struggled for a long time trying to decide a major. I had always been really interested in the family, relationships, child development classes and working for the credit union that last nine months had also interested me in finance. I have to give credit to my friend Whintey who told me about this major. I'm grateful for an education...

I now have to leave a lot of things behind. My queen bed, my big room, my own bathroom, my cat, my ward... my cook (mom). Haha. I am feeling a little overwhelmed with it all. And not just for the material things. My last day at my job was yesterday. I didn't realize how much I'm going to miss working there. I've developed some true friendships and thinking of having to go to a new branch and start all over again is a little scary. It took me a long time to finally get a position at a branch up in Logan and I am SO GRATEFUL, don't get me wrong. I count my blessings every day. I'm so glad I don't have to learn a new job. What a relief. I do have to learn a new city. I think mapquest is going to become my new best friend. I'm grateful for Bountiful and knowing where everything is...

I really think this is going to be good for me. While I liked Weber the two years I went there, I don't have anything there now that I want to go back for... Except for maybe Brother Schwab... I feel like if I went back a lot of scars would open up again, and I would have a rough semester. I know I would be avoiding running into a few people and doing that every day is a little stressful. I've thought a lot about the experiences I had in the last year. I've definitely grown a lot and wouldn't change them for anything. Sometimes it still hurts though... I'm grateful for a change of scenery...

I think the hardest thing for me will be seeing how a certain relationship turns out. I won't go into much detail, because I don't really feel like posting my personal life all over the internet. Relationships are full of risk and vulnerability, and quite frankly, freakin scary! But I feel like out of all the hurt, chances you take, and break ups, I wouldn't want to miss out on that amazing feeling of being with someone you really care about. I've had my fair share of jerks and once you find one that isn't, you wonder if he's really real. I've decided respect is one of the number one things I need in a relationship, and he does it without me even asking. I could go on and on with qualities he possesses that are wonderful in every way, but I won't. :) I know it's going to be hard and roller coaster full of emtions, but I have no doubt it'll all work out in the end. I'm grateful for the amazing power deep within us to experience such emotions...

Now that I've had a break from packing, I should probably get busy again. I'm going to maybe cry a little, take a deep breath, and hope for the best. Wish me luck. That is all.

4 comments:

kristin said...

Jalene, I love you!

Whitney said...

I also love you!

JMoney said...

Don't worry too much about learning Logan. It's really easy...this coming from the master of back roads. But it really isn't hard.

Oh and congrajulashuns, a link to your blog has just been added to mine.

Lindsay Kay said...

Good luck Jaleny! I hope that you get the adventure and learning experience you are looking for. Remember "a day at a time". I love you and miss you. Be happy and keep me updated :)