heartbreak.

gosh, where do i start?

we had to do something terribly sad today. 

something i hope i never have to do again.

remember how lincoln's family lives in oklahoma?

well, we have been taking care of their cat, allie, while they are gone.

yesterday we went over to their house to check on allie, but we couldn't find her.

she's an outside cat and sometimes is off hunting.

so we went back today to check on her...

lincoln found her in the garage laying there moaning.

he called me in a panic.

luckily, i was just getting off work when this happened, so i called the vet, ran and got lincoln, and we took her right in.

she couldn't walk and we were terrified.

i thought she may have gotten hit by the car.

luckily our vet is a good family friend and he was right there when we arrived.

he examined her and thought maybe she had a back injury and that's why she wasn't walking,

so they did an x-ray.

nothing, 

structurally she was fine.

so he did a blood test...

he came back and said he's never seen a blood test like her's and said it was completely full of white blood cells.

leukemia.

heart break.

basically, we could treat her and make her comfortable for a while longer.

or let her go.

she was getting old and the decision was made to let her go.

keep in mind, lincoln and i are the only ones in our family left here in utah.

allie is 13 years old.

same as rusty.

in a matter of three hours, we found out she had leukemia and said our final goodbyes.

we are so terribly sad.

it's absolutely devastating to lose a pet.

lots of tears and swollen eyes over here today.

she was such a sweet little lady.

we sat with her for the last half hour of her life, petted her and kissed her head.

and we were there when she passed.

we buried her in the backyard and marked her grave.

love her.

and she will be deeply missed by our family.