late night thoughts.

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i hate school.

there, i said it.

i could think of about 5 million other things that i would rather be doing with my life right now.  and i could think of just about as many things i would have rather done on my friday night, but instead i stared at a computer screen for 4+ hours purging my brain of recent trends in income, consumption, wealth, employment, and .... something else that i can't remember.

you see what it did to me?

it broke my eyeballs and fired my brain.

am i even making sense?

you see, i really do believe in education.  it's something i value tremendously, and i'm very grateful for it.  but about a semester ago, i realized that i was in the wrong major.  well, it's the right major because i do learn a lot and a lot of it is really applicable to life in general, 

but it's not fun anymore. 

it's only hard,

and boring, 

and dull, 

and time consuming, 

and i feel like i'm not learning anything anymore.  

can you see how that would be frustrating?

besides, i think all my teachers have this evil plot against me to destroy every ounce of capacity in my body by scheduling things due all in the same week.

for instance, this week i had 3 horrendous exams, 2 ginormous papers, and 1 really hard quiz.  next week i have like 3 little assignments and a really easy quiz.

seriously, who does that?

are they trying to steal my sanity?  

well, it's working.

the night ended with me in sobbing tears with strained back muscles, broken eyeballs, and an exploded brain.  

not a great state of being, if i do say so myself.

or maybe their evil plot is to try and fail all the students their last semester so they have to retake classes and pay the university even more money!

i don't know.  what do you think?

thanks for letting me admit that here on cyberspace.

i hope you all have a lovely weekend.