Oh, dear. It's been a while hasn't it? This is been probably the craziest summer of my life. I photographed 22 weddings in 16 weeks. It was a lot. But it was also amazing. It is such an amazing thing to have a confirmation that you are doing something you love AND make money for it. The madness has settled down and I finally have had time to reflect.
This summer has been so wonderful with work, but I am feeling somewhat emotional about how unexciting our life is. Our life is not glamorous. Not even close. The days I am not shooting, I still at my computer (usually in my undies) alllllll day. Before I know it, it's 5:00 and I try and find something for dinner. Then we usually watch TV and go to bed. Except I don't fall asleep for at least three hours because for some reason I've had some weird insomnia come into my life.
You know how when you're in high school or college, friends are your life. At least they were for me. Being basically an only child, I spent a lot of time with friends. Once you're married, you still spend time with friends, but not every day like in college. We have some pretty awesome friends who we love spending time with, but with schedules and babies making their way into this world, our time together is getting sparse. Other couples like us probably spend their time with their families as well. Well, we see my parents every week or so, which is great. But every member of Lincoln's immediate family is living in another part of the county/world.
I'm not going to lie. I miss them. A lot. It would be so nice to just pop in for Sunday dinner and hang out for a couple hours. We have been very fortunate to see them often, but it's not the same. Even though we haven't moved away from the places we grew up, we kind of feel like we live "out of state," away from our family. The time between visits seems to last forever. I'm excited for them to come home. (And for Chase & Leah to move back... that's soon, right, even though you just bought a house in Kansas...) Since Lincoln and I have been married, his parents and younger siblings have been serving a mission. When I think about all Lincoln and I have experienced and how we have had two years of marriage, it feels like they have been gone for a looooooong time. And out of those two years, I've spent a collective 30 some-odd days with them when we have gone to visit. We are so blessed to have them serving in Oklahoma and we love it there, but we really miss them. *sigh*... less than a year left. I suppose all of this I'm feeling is my constant battle with that thing called "balance." It is so hard for me. If any of you have the answer to this, please share!
Basically, the time between seeing family and us being so wrapped up in life (work, school, laundry, grocery shopping, busyness) seems to go by so fast, yet so slow. Nephews and little brothers grow up so fast, don't ya know? And all I feel like I do is stare at a computer screen the majority of my days. It just feels so underwhelming and lonely. And it's kind of annoying. This is why I am going to attempt to blog again... To take the time to reflect and think. Something I haven't been doing a lot of lately. Writing can be an incredible outlet. Especially when lonely (for me). And there are so many people in the blogging world that I feel particularly attached to and connecting with them has been a very enjoyable part of my life (past and present).
Sounds like I need a good vacation, right?
In about a week we will be flying to Oklahoma to pick up Lincoln's little sister, Abby, from the airport from the return of her mission in Chile. I am sooooo excited to see her. I think our family has felt a little incomplete since she has been gone. It will feel so good to all be together again for the first time since December 2010, even if it's only for one and a half days.
About three weeks after that, Lincoln and I will be traveling to Poland for 12 days. Lincoln served and LDS mission in Poland and holds a very special place in his heart for the country and people. It will be a wonderful trip to take together and get to see the place he talks about daily.
So hello, again, dear blog. Nice to see you again. I can't make promises of anything glamorous or exciting, so don't expect much, but I'm glad to have you back in my life.
And what kind of photographer would I be if I didn't include a photo... even if it's a ridiculous one: